I just can't give up..

Well, back in hull and it's all the same... It seems as though my house mates ignore me socially.. They will willingly talk to me in the house, but they won't even invite me out anymore.. Am I that much of a social reject..? Do people really hate to hang out with me that much...? Some times I just want to give up, and I know that's an emo thing to say, and quite frankly I don't care. What is the point..? of life? of social lives? of social status?. As Shakespeare wrote in the hamlet soliloquy

"To be or not to be – that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles
And, by opposing, end them. To die, to sleep -
No more – and by a sleep to say we end
The heartache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to – ‘tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wished. To die, to sleep -
To sleep, perchance to dream. Ay, there's the rub,
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come,
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause. There's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life.
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
Th’ oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of despised love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office, and the spurns
That patient merit of th’ unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? Who would fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscovered country from whose bourn
No traveler returns, puzzles the will
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscience does make cowards of us all,
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprises of great pitch and moment
With this regard their currents turn awry,
And lose the name of action.—Soft you now!
The fair Ophelia! Nymph, in thy orisons
Be all my sins remembered."

Quite rightly to be or not to be... sometimes it is good (maybe) to feel like this...? but i can't wait to get out of this house again, and go home...

Amazing...

I was on youtube, looking at some cello solos and I came across this one, the Handel-Halvorsen Passacaglia for Cello and Violin. And I must say I was blown away, reading some of the comments made me laugh people were saying that they would learn the violin or cello and quite frankly I feel inspired to learn either instrument. I know the sounds of a beginner playing the violin and an experience player are very very different, but practice makes perfect. So here is the video, I suggest you watch the whole thing, it is amazing. A beautiful peice really, and it is doen by the same guy no less. Epic.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NseBdxfHk5k&feature=related

'nuff said, later

my life after new years..

So, it has been a week since my last post.. I need to keep on top of this blog.. haha my life.. hmm... new years eve and day was pretty boring I just sat around talking on msn. Then I went and did the stupidest thing to date, I downloaded and tried to install vista back onto my laptop, which completely buggered it up for a while, because I did the stupid thing of installing the 64 bit version onto my laptop which had/has the 32 bit version on it, so I had hardware problems. But I was able to fix this because I reinstalled my current OS back onto my laptop.. :D and now it works fine..

I saw Monsters vs. Aliens a few days ago.. I thought it was awesome, especially the first contact scene with the giant robot, twas priceless. I won't say anything about it, you'll have to watch it to see what I mean.. :P I also watched Zombieland again, I think it gets better if you watch it a seccond time.. haha. I also watched G-Force, which is a film about Guinea pigs, that are FBI agents.. it has some funny moments, and is overall a good film too..

That has basically been my week, a week of messing up my laptop, and watching films. I have yet to get on with my three essays, all have to be between 1000 and 1500 words each, or chemistry related subjects, like liquid crystals, carbon 60 and a superconductor... but I'll get on them soon.
Methinks thats enough for this post..

'nuff said, later

Hey 2010..

So 2009 is offically gone, it was a year full of joy, and sadness and anger... but it was mostly a Joyful year.. But it was a year full of problems too.. love problems, family problems, life problems, but which year isn't..? This year was a good one, I met new people.. Petra, Malin, Lina, and various new people from uni.. And I reconnected with old friends, Kayta.

I'd like to say thanks to thoes new people for gettint to know me.. :P

Lets hope that 2010 is just as good, if not better..

'nuff said, later