Do I do anything right..?

Sometimes I wonder  if i can do anythig right in my life, is it me being able to fail at everything, or is it purely circumstancial.. Do I deserve things in life if I just mess up all the time..? I try my hardest at everything, it seems that sometimes my hardest isn't good enough..

WOO!!

SO last wek i managed to mess up my Laptop, it was not good because i had a very nasty virus that i didn't manage to get rid of properly.. so i ended up messing up the hard drive on my laptop. It blowed.. However i managed to get a new one, and i will be more careful with this HDD. And i have spent pretty much all of today trying to get programmes back on it.. which was rather boring and very tedious. But my computer is fixed now.. well relativly, i have to fix the fan and thats about it.. i think.. :S


anywho I start university again in the next two weeks, i can't wait to go back, and start learning.. 

New Safety Glasses!!!

On tuesday I picked up my new safety glasses for chemistry that I got before I finished uni last year, academic year that is.. :P Here they are:

Pictures by me.

I know the pictures are rubbish, but thats because me as a photogropher doesn't really work. The brand is Swiss One, and they seem pretty awesome. We'll see how they hold up in labs.

wondering..

Sometimes i wonder why i am on the earth... why i am here... living, alive.. because quite frankly after some of the things i have probably said and done, i really shouldn't.. It seems that i am always saying things without thinking first, this is a huge problem for me, because i say things that no one likes... So that makes me wonder why anyone would ever like a screw up like me??? Maybe the best thing is for me to not say a word to anyone...?? Would this soloution solve my problem..?

Dilemma much...

I have come across a dilemma, I don't know what to do with my 360 anymore.. :S I enjoy playing on it but i feel that it is being left there not being played on.. and i don't know if i should get rid of it for that reason... :S

What should I do...???

*UPDATE* I'm not going to get rid of it, it would make me very sad to see it go, i me as sad as other things would... but the 360 is not going...

Rhe realisation that this is probably the worst blog entry anyone could ever do has hit me... :P

Petra, coming to england again.. :D

The second post of tonight... :D Petra is coming to England again.. More specifically to my parents house, not to meet them though, to see me again... YAY!

I can't wait for her to get here again, because we are going to london for the day, and staying there.. it's going to be epic.. There really isn't alot that i can say in this post, i think that all of my energy has gone into the last post.. haha
On another note though, I passed this year at University.. :D it is gravy.. but before i end this post i must say YAY once more, because as you may have noted Petra is comeing to England again.. :D :D :D :D :D

3 things I hate about you..

Sitting here in Katie's room, round my mothers friends house. Petra told me that i should blog, and subsequently i forgot, and now i have to post twice... I have decided to write about three things that i think a person should have, and three things that a person has that i dislike, i think I'll write about the latter first..

Firstly i hate it when people Smoke..

All of the people in my immediate family smoke, that is my parents and my little brother... and this buggs me, being the only non smoker in a family full of smokers, it really sounds as if i have smokers cough... I try my hardest to keep my room smelling clean and fresh, which is hard, but try as i might; i am bound to fail sometimes..

Secondly i hate indecisiveness..

Now for people who know me, this is extremely hypocritical of me to hate indecisiveness.. However i still do, it annoys me when i am indecisive, and for some reason it annoys me when others are to.

Lastly i hateTardiness
Tardiness or lateness, i hate it.. a person always has to be on time and punctual otherwise i get slightly annoyed.. not as annoyed as with the other two that i have listed but still pretty annoyed...

Now that, that bit is over i have been asked to write about three things that i think that people should have, as in good things.... wow that sentence even confused me... :S

Firstly I think that people should have a good sense of humor.
A good sense of humor is key sometimes.. because a person with a good sense of humor is easy to get along with sometimes..because if you have nothing to say then you can just crack off a good joke and then get back into conversation again..

Secondly i think that an open mind is needed
having an open mind is a good thing because, anything can be suggested and thought about, rather than being dissmissed right off the bat..

and lastly integrity.
Integrity is one of the best qualities to have, because integrity is not just about being truthful, it shows what type of character you have. Also it shows how you are towards to other people.

It may sould like a load of crap, because thats how it sounds to me.. but thats what i was asked to write about, and thats what i have done... i will blog later... 

Home again.. :(

So here i am, at home again... In England sorry blog that i havn't posted earlier i have been keeping myself busy.. Sweden was awesome, and i can't wait to go back. the country is amazingly beautiful, the people are friendly and the food is good... rather expensive but good nonetheless... I had my birthday over in sweden this year, and i enjoied it loads, i went bowling with petra, she totally kicked my butt at it, and i got an amazing present from her.. a bamboo tablet pen, it is epic if a little hard to get used to..

My bamboo pen :D from Petra

And we went to Gröna Lund, which was amazing. I went on the rollercoasters which i thought i would never do.. Insane was the scariest ride i have ever been on, and i think it will remain that way. But going on the rollercoasters has made me realise that i don't have alot to worry about when i am on them.. i should just relax and enjoy it. And at Gröna Lund i met Malin, which was cool... some of the comments that she came out with was hillarious for instance when we were in line for insane she said "I clean myself.." among others.. but alas i don't want to write everything i did in sweden, i'll blog more about it later...

Me, Petra and Malin at Gröna Lund...

Sweden..

Soon I am off on holiday, to Sweden... i can't wait, and i know that i shouldn't count down the days because it annoys well... everyone.. but it is only 4 days away, then i shall be with Petra again, and it'll be awesome.. :D I don't expect alot from sweden, hell i have no expectations. i don't know if it'll be a beautiful country or a not so nice country, i expect the former really, I expect sweden to be a beautiful place. and thats about all i expect :S I am already mostly packed and i have a while left, i am that excited about it.. weird huh..?


Anyway.. sweden here i come.. haha..

Exam results..

Today i got my exam results... and I passed. I passed this year and so i'm onto next... my parents are over the mood about this, and so is petra and pretty much every one else that i have told...



I guess thats all i have to say on the matter... haha.. i passed, and thats that..

Bored!!!

I am lying on my bed again, mid week... And I am bored.. Bored out of my mind.. I have no idea what to do... I don't really want to go out because all my friends seem to have migrated elsewhere.. :S.. On the other hand it isn't that long until I go on holiday... :D:D:D to Sweden, to see a very good friend of mine.. I can't wait, I constantly look forward to it, and I can't help but count away the days.. :(

Later.. i'll find something to do..

Nöt creme

I got some nut creme from petra today... it is good.. :S which is weird for it's name haha..

it's been a while...

I know it has been a while, and the last time i wrote i didn't have nice things to say about myself.. but i feel the need to write again, to be positive.. :D my life has had it's ups and downs since the last day that i wrote.. and at the moment i am on the positive part of my life.

I have the most amazing person in the world who cares about me, and i couldn't do half the things that i do if she wasn't in my life.. so thankyou Petra.. :P you are truely amazing.. and i'm going for a phone in a little bit... :P

I am a JERK!!

Its a new week, and I have already been a jerk to someone.. Will I ever stop being a jerk? Why am I a jerk in the first place, why do I do things that make me a jerk... peoples lives would probably be better with one less jerk in them... I guess I'll lie in bed and think about why I am such a jerk, and what makes me say jerky things... But I think I already know.... It's because I AM a jerk..

Why do I do it..?

Why do I say stupid things? Why do I do stupid things? What is it that draws me to do idiotic things? I guess that just goes to show how much of an idiot I really am.. People shouldn't expect good things from me, I always let them down.. I most likely always will..

Well done Nick, the epic fail at everything.. Really well done...

Emoism..?

I have been wondering... people tend to turn to Emoism when they are sad, but sometimes that is only in dire situations.. :S so what is the deal with emo's that suffer from emoism all the time..? do they not get enough attention from their parents..? do they truly hate themselves..? do they have a reason for being like that all the damn time.. because if so i want to hear it... alot of emo's should be slapped... life isn't bad... life is what you make of it... so in my eyes the only reason that emo's hate life is because they make it bad for themselves.. so alot of eno's just need to see the world more optimistically.. and i know it can be hard.. but i know that it can also be done...

So to all you emo's out there in the world wide interwebs... CHEER THE FUNK UP....

lates..

Are looks everything?

I had no idea what to put in my blog.. so I asked Petra, and she suggested that I write on looks. The subject of looks is a tricky one at that, because if I say too much on it then i may seem vain, and if I say too many negative things, people will think I am lying. But I shall try to tackle it nonetheless.

Looks, hmm what can I say... Looks are seen as the defining feature in todays society; because if a guy doesn't look that good then girls will ignore him, making him go gay or whatever, and if a girl doesn't look good then the guys don't go within 100 metres of her. But as looks kinda define the relationships today, they really shouldn't because on occasion, those with looks are the simpletons, the idiots of society. And honestly the world doesn't need that many idiots around. In my opinion it isn't looks that define who likes who, it is the personality and moral values of a person that does that, and if said person happens to bee "good looking" then that is an added bonus really isn't it?

“Don't go for the looks, it can be quite deceiving. Don't go for wealth, even that fades away -- go for someone who makes you smile because only a smile makes a dark day seem bright. Hope you find that person.”

There was no cited author for this quote, but whoever it may be is spot on in my opinion. Love and looks can't co-exist, you either love someone for their personality or they way they make you feel, or you "love" the way that they look.

On the other hand, looks can be a good thing, especially as they say that love is blind, if that was true then the e ugliest guy could get the most beautiful girl in the world, just by being himself. Looks can make people try their hardest for the best looking guy/girl, it's something to aim for right?

Maybe, but who knows what makes some people so vain that they have to get the best looking person? I know that I'd be happy just as long as I got along with the girl.

I think that may be it for that... I think that if I write anymore, I may just repeat myself.. so laters people..

Paintballing Today..

Today I went paint balling for the first time, It was wicked... :D I loved it.. although I did get battered and bruised... and shot by probably one of my own team mates... In the back of the head... not cool... but that set aside it was still awesome.. :D I would defiantly like to do it again... I will have some nice bruises in the morning... :S Also, why don't people surrender I gave two people the chance to surrender in the first game, which was a fort scenario, so lots of close quarters... but none of them did so I had to shoot them multiple times... I was rather lucky because I had a few bounce off me at close range.. good thing they didn't burst otherwise I would have had to start again at the beginning... so lucky me there...

I would recommend paint balling to people.. it's fun and contrary to popular belief it doesn't hurt as much as people think.. It is just very tyring...

That was the main event of my day... followed up by the awesome event of talking to Petra... :D:D:D:D:D:D

Laters..

Bone marrow donor

In the post not so long ago i recieved my bone marrow donor card... After applying when i last gave blood in march i think... But its all good hopefully i am able to save someones life with my bone marrow... I wonder how many people have gotten my blood... I wonder if it has even beed used... I wonder if vampires really exist... :-S but i think thats probably what i will ponder before i go to bed tonight... Anywho i'll end this now... Because it is going nowhere...

Laters...

Wooo.... Interwebs again..

YAY, *happy dance* I have the interwebs back, although I feel like a huge tit because I didn't check the settings of my router.. That is the most embarrassing thing that I can forget to do..

But YAY the interwebs is back... haha... My week so far has consisted of cheering Petra up.. :P and I seem to be okies at it too, which I guess is good. I can't wait for July to come.. :D it's going to be awesome, Sweden here I come.. :D :D :D I have also done quite a bit of work because of no interwebs, which again I guess is good... as for this post, I have nothing more to say..

Laters...

No interwebs... :-(

It blows.. I have no interwebs at all in my house and it blows. I miss talking to petra and the few others that i talk to... Hopefully it'll be back on later today i hope... I wonder what i will do today... :-S oh well i have crappy interwebs on my phone that will do for the moment... Sorry to make this post full of complaint... So i guess i'll talk to people later

Police Horses in Hull..?

Picture from the Metropolitan police website... not hull :( haha

Today as i was walking home i saw two police horses... and yesterday i saw a police horse box.. :S i didn't think that Hull of all places would have Police horses.. :S i thought that it was more rural areas that had them... it was weird to see them, because the horses were magnificant, i know petra you don't like horses and never thought i would like them... but what can i say i'm from newmarket.. i have a passion for horse racing.. but this is the first you may have heard of it.. :P

Nevertheless they were magnificant, and quite majestic at that.. although the riders weren't so in their flourscent yello clothing.. haha.. It was just a shock to see horses in Hull, on a busy road no less... Like i say.. it was just weird to see..

On another note i did like loads of work today... twas a weird day for me... :S

My first photoshop picture

Yesterday petra sent me a photo of her for me to mess around with, it was/is a beautiful picture. But she told me to have a play around with it to get used to photoshop, and this is the result.




This is my first attempt at photshopping.. and i think it looks really good, obviously petra's eyes aren't red... they are a beautiful blue/green colour... but what do you think of it..?

this week was the best ever...

Very beautiful picture of petra, taken near the princess quay shopping centre

This week Petra came to england, to see me.. and it was awesome we watched films, hugged, played guitar hero, ate ben and jerrys, we baked, we cooked for each other, and it was awesome with a capital legen - wait for it - dary we even went to the cinema, and went for a meal. It was the best 5 days of my life.. nothing can compare to them at the moment... I will miss her hugs, and her beautiful smile, and her kisses.. admitidly we will talk online... but nothing compares to being able to see her beautiful smile with my own two eyes.. I will miss it all... i can still feel her on me, her taking breaths, i can feel her head on my shoulders, i can feel her hair in my face... As a friend has said to me, the feeling of someone leaving is horrible.. i just don't feel whole anymore.. i feel like there is a very important part of me missing.. and i want it back..

[REC]...

There is a spanish film out there called [REC] and it is a good film, the english version is called Quarantine and that is good too, but i have just seen the trailer for [REC]2 and i keep looking over my shoulder every few mins waiting to see a zombie of some sort, it has scared the beejebus out of me.. and i will embed it here... but you have to be over 18 to watch it, so just put in a date of birth that makes you over 18 to watch it for thoes of you who aren't 18 yet... [REC] is a good film, and i kinda expect [REC]2 to be good as well...

[REC]2 trailer...

[REC] trailer, i suggest you watch this one first..



And finally Quarantine, i can't embed so i'll link it..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZUw2zNR5Dzc

Amazing...

I know shocking, two posts in one day.. I amaze even myself but I will cut to the point, I was was watching bleach, an anime that I was behind in now I am up to date, and they changed the end song, and it sounds amazing... Jpop isn't something i'll listen to outside of watching anime, but this is a song that I will listen to, and enjoy.

I'll embed it here for you to watch... the video is a little boring I think, but the song is epic

it's been a while..

It has been a while since i last wrote in my blog. maybe i should say sorry for not writing... but i guess i won't.. it's not like people read my blog nevertheless i have been asked to write because i haven't done so in a while..

My life has been pretty mundane appart from talking to petra, things are going well there haha.. I found out that the trains are going on strike again, typical train drivers wanting more money and whatnot for something that a child /monkey could do, or maybe the companies could outsource and let computers do it, and only employ the maitinence for the computers... then they would never go on strike... or they could just remember the armed services, they come in when the firefighters go on strike, and they never go on strike themselves.. train drivers are just in my mind very selfish people, but enough of that rant on trains and striking.

Today i managed to cut myself with a craft knife... i was doing one of the models that i bought it was either the chopper, a motorcycle yes it's a new one for me, or the F-14A Black Tomcat, yes another plane haha, but i have quite a large "gash" in my right thumb which makes it kinda hard to do anything it's such an annoyance!! I guess i will get a scar from it.. but hey i'm not complaining, they say that chicks dig scars.

so that was my day.. just sitting and modeling for a while, now i am talking on msn and whatnot, it's all goood.. later

University library..

Librarys aren't really the most exciting places in the world, or in face ever. But still I like it, especially if I can get a quiet place, that just requires me to read or do work whichever I feel like doing. The university library doesn't really allow reading unless its complicated books about I don't know what I feel that it's time that I went to a real library, not a university one, one with fiction books I feel a bit lonely because I haven't been reading that much. I guess that I just need a good book to read. Any suggestions?

Love..

I couldn't think of anything to write in my blog today, so I asked petra, and she suggested that I write about love. So i guess I will write about love. Love, is a complicated emotion/feeling that sucks some of the time because of the way that it makes people feel, when you are in love it's like being on top of the world, you feel (and hope) that nothing will end your current reign, and hopefully nothing will ever jeperdise that for you and your loved one. However when you or a person is not in a relationship or in love, then life seems to suck. You wonder why the things that happened, happened. Was it your fault, or even if your loved one will ever get back with you? I guess that different people handle Love differently, wether it's breaking up of getting together. I just know that it is an awesome feeling when you are in love, and it totally blows when you have just broken up.. Everyone needs some sort of love, wether it is the love of a stranger of the love of a family member or the love of a friend. To survive this harsh environment and life people need to feel loved.

this proves nothing..

This proves nothing except that my brain is crap... and i couldn't help if my little brother doesn't know how to use a laptop.. :P so i lost the dare.. oh well... there might be a next time.. though i doubt it.. :P

Mouhahahaha

If you forget today, our dare is over..

Edit 00:02: You failed the dare! *happy dance* (yep, I'm doing this without your knowledge just because I can...) lets see how long it takes before you realise it....

Emulators..

So, as a gamer i have several emmulators on my laptop. An emmulator allows me to play games that are for a specific console on my computer, like i have a Snes emulator and an N64 and a GBA one, i want to get the Genisis again and the MSX so i can play on metal gear 1 and 2 the prequils to Metal gear solid. but i have been playing alot of pokemon of late like pokemon leaf green, i love the pokemon games i did so as a child and i still do as a nearly 20 year old child..

My favourite pokemon out of all of them, that is the original 150 (151 including mew) has to be Kabotops which you get from the dome folssil in Mt. Moon it is awesome... i also like scyther that is awesome too... it may be the sythes for hands in both of them, but i don't care what anyone else says... haha

tell me people... what is your favourite old school game, so no next gen consoles... nothing like the Wii, 360 or PS3 i want old games and consoles... then tell me why..?

Music..

Wouldn't it be awesomely cool if music played during the events of life..? It would be awesome, all be it quite annoying at time, like if you were alone in the house and you heard a noise suspense music would play when you went to investigate the noise.. that would be cool, but if you had music play at your every step, that would be annoying.

Petra gave me the topic of music to write about in my blog today, so i am going to write about music, and I'll say sorry for forgetting to publish a post yesterday.. So the music that i like is becoming more diversified, because at one point i was only listening to bands like slipknot, all that remains, as i lay dying, devildriver.. things like that.. but now i listen to things like the all American rejects, hellogoodbye, hell i even have an N-dubz song on my spotify, very weird.

But it doesn't really matter what music people listen to, as long as they enjoy it, i mean i like to listen to classical and operatic music sometimes, it tends to calm my mind and help me focus. i know that i am being hypocritical to what i just said, but the only type of music that bothers me is that bloody chav crap, it's ridiculous. I don't understand how people can listen to it.

Oh well thats that rant done.. haha some of my favourite bands include:

• Killswitch Engage
• Hellogoodbye
• Hoobastank
• All that Remains
• Dead by April

and many many more....

later dudes..

Blog-obsession, anyone?

If you guys didn't know, Nick got a challange from me(Petra). He's going to post something everyday in this blog. Seems like he's not succeeding with that today and therefore, I'm doing it for him.

Nick is an awesome person. I'm very lucky to know him.
Now I'm just waiting for him to talk to me, so that I can complain to him for not posting anything... ;)

Somebody to love.

My cousin Kristofer is at TVU (Thames Valley University) doing a degree in film studies because he was to be a director of somekind.. and i thought that i'd show one of his films, his latest film "Somebody to love" it is a good film, maybe a bit confusing but it's good nonetheless...



That is the video, and if you search Plank Industries on youtube you can find more of his videos.. enjoy people..

Sometimes, I wonder why??

Sometime i really wonder why able bodied people don't donate blood, okies i get that some people are scared of needles, and have medical conditions, and are guys who have had anal sex, protected or unprotected. But that still leaves alot of people... There is no harm in lying there for all of 5 minutes to give a pint of blood that takes 16 weeks for your body to remake.. And today i put myself down as a Bone Marrow donor, i figured that my body will remake it, so why the hell not.. if it goes to helping someone who needs it, then i am okies with that..

Seriously... I wonder if all people are this selfish alot of the time.. i know i am not the perfect person, but i mean at least i try to help thoes in need.. seriously guys... donate some blood... it's definatly needed, hospitals can never have too much of the stuff..

or maybe this will convince you.. haha.. the vampires that don't hunt that much anymore, so the beurocratic ones.. need the blood to feed on.. but back to the seriousness... everyone who can should donate at least once.. it is needed.. and plus it might get my mail from the NBS cut down... They like to send me lots of mail because my blood group is O neg..

So people.. get on it... donate some blood... do some good and help save a life...

Valentines day.

Valentines day was a week ago today, and mine sucked.. how was yours..? Valentines day in general is not a good day to celebrate if it hates you. The day and what it stands for certainly hates me and i hate it back. I spent my valentines day being angry and arguing with the one that i love. i know shocking.. i actually love someone.. :P but i will definatly make up for it at some point. Valentines day is hard to endure when you are single as well, i remember joking around with my friends sending prank valentines day cards, because it was fun. haha.. not so fun now though. I have never really gotten anything that i like until now, because i hinted at it.. haha.

I am having a hard time writing about V day, and i think it's because i have never enjoyed it as a day for couples.. it has just made me sad in previous years to be doing nothing other then playing games or hanging out with friends. I sure that one day i will finally appreciate it when i take the girl that i love/am seeing out for maybe a meal and the cinema, i know it sounds simple and rather cliched but sometimes simple is the best.. because it's just about spending time together.

but thats enough on that horrible day, not being with that special person made me sad, and rather feel like an emotionless person again, rather like a zombie. To the people that read my blog... what is your contingency plan for a Zombie apocalypse..?

Book - A tool barely used by todays societies, because it is not 'cool' to read a book.

Hello there again..

So this time Nick gave me a subject, books. How could I expect something else than books, or something similar - something geeky? Well I did, for some reason. But here I am, with a geeky subject. But I shall not complain, I am a geek myself.

I think it's quite hard to say which book is my favourite. There are lots of books that I enjoy reading, and there are two different book series that are close to my heart. The first one, the amazing and fantastic one, Harry Potter. The Harry Potter world is awesome. The books involves everything you can possibly want to read about, or well.. not sex and stuff like that. But for that you can read a sex novel. But it is something special with Harry Potter. And the films are awesome too. Nick likes to call me a Pottard. I guess I am a Pottard, AND I'M PROUD OF IT!

The next serie of books that I really like, is a serie called Screech owls that I used to love as a kid. Not really what I expected myself to like, but I do. The books are about an ice hockey team called Screech owls, who travels around to play ice hockey in different countries, and everywhere they go they seem to get into trouble - murders etc. I loved it. I read the books over and over again. I feel like I want to read them again now..

I guess my favourite genres are criminals, that's what I seem to read the most. I'm quite tired of all the teenage books that are released nowadays. They all includes the same things - sex, love, cheating, alcohol, parties.. As well as the teenage films are always the same. B-o-r-i-n-g.

It seems to be alot easier to post a long post on Nicks blog than on my own blog, weird. I apologise for the long post though. Won't happen again, unless you want me too.
So long sweethearts..
The one and only, Petra...

the title of this post is from Urbandictionary...

I am a lord, who is sometimes bored, have some urges and need to fulfil them...

Shock and horror petra posted in my blog... haha... yes i did ask her to because i didn't have alot to write.. But now i am posting. so not alot is going on with my life, just like normal. I have University, which is okies i guess. lessons can be boring sometimes, so much so that i have fallen asleep in one lecture this week and nearly fallen asleep in another. but i still managed to take notes.. haha. i went and bought a model submarine this week too, to keep me occupied, and it always works. I usually got for aeroplanes or jet planes and helicopters, i have had so many AH-64 Apache's and AH-64 Longbow Apache's, and yes there is a difference, that being that the AH-64 Longbow Apache has a radar mounted on the top of the rotor blades and the other doesn't..

I have had many Lynx's and my first ever helicopter model was the Seaking, it is probably one of the best memories of me and my dad building something, other then when i was in middle school and we had to make roman weapons, me and my father made a roman shield and spear, it too ages.. but back to models. i have had many spitfires and meshersmits (or however you spell it haha) so i thought i would try something different, i bought a Class 214 Submarine, and i have decided that i want the Bismark next.

I enjoy building models, it forces me to clear my mind and think of only doing the model otherwise i end up dropping bits.. and no one like dropping a small bit of anything. I have to finish painting it now.. and that will take a while, not that i mind.

i will post a picture when i have finished it.. :D

i think that is enough now because i am just rambling about models, and Thank you Petra for posting when i didn't have alot to post.. I appreciate it :D

A post by the most important guest this blog will ever have

Hey people... :P

So Nicholas told me to write a post on his blog, and he didn't really give me much of a choice. I don't mind though, since this blog seems to be quite empty anyways. This is the second time I am guest blogging. I used to do it on my old teachers blog last year. I wouldn't say I'm used to it though, I'm not sure what to write about.

I met Nicholas, or Nick, on a site quite a while ago. On the 12th of may or something, I think? It's quite interesting that we kept talking, considering that we both started out with some weird facts about eachother. It's a very good thing though, that we did. Since we are now talking every day, and I'd say that I enjoy it very much..

So what else can I write? Maybe something about myself? I'm a blonde, short, swedish girl who's hopefully not living up to the swedish stereotype, even though I have my blonde moments. But who doesn't have blonde moments, really? Even Nick has blonde moments. I am pretty shy, although it's been getting alot better lately. I don't seem to care too much anymore. I'm not sure I can describe myself more than that. Some people have said that I'm funny. But the only times I'd say I'm funny, is when it's totally not on purpose, when I embarress myself.

This was a lame post. Maybe the next time I can get a subject to work on?
So long sweethearts (yeah, you could put some ugly words there - but you know I wouldn't)
Petra

sorry I took so long..

I have been thinking.. and doing alot of things since i last wrote in my blog. And i have realised that i need to write in my blog more often, i just kinda forget about it.. so recent events in my life... I finished one of my essays for university, and i went back to hull. The new semester starts this week... I don't have too many lectures so it's all gravy..

I went and saw Daybreakers on saturday, it was a good film although the ending was weak and there was too many jumpy moments that just weren't needed. so all in all it was a good film and the role that willem dafoe, or however his name is spelt.. i can't be bothered to look it up.. haha, played was a funny one.

thats about all that happened.. other then watching the usual stuff; NCIS, scrubs, the big bang theory, how i met your mother, ghost whisperer and various films.
so that might have to be enough for this post because i can't think of anything else to write, if i do then i'll post it.

later..

I just can't give up..

Well, back in hull and it's all the same... It seems as though my house mates ignore me socially.. They will willingly talk to me in the house, but they won't even invite me out anymore.. Am I that much of a social reject..? Do people really hate to hang out with me that much...? Some times I just want to give up, and I know that's an emo thing to say, and quite frankly I don't care. What is the point..? of life? of social lives? of social status?. As Shakespeare wrote in the hamlet soliloquy

"To be or not to be – that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles
And, by opposing, end them. To die, to sleep -
No more – and by a sleep to say we end
The heartache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to – ‘tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wished. To die, to sleep -
To sleep, perchance to dream. Ay, there's the rub,
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come,
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause. There's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life.
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
Th’ oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of despised love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office, and the spurns
That patient merit of th’ unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? Who would fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscovered country from whose bourn
No traveler returns, puzzles the will
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscience does make cowards of us all,
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprises of great pitch and moment
With this regard their currents turn awry,
And lose the name of action.—Soft you now!
The fair Ophelia! Nymph, in thy orisons
Be all my sins remembered."

Quite rightly to be or not to be... sometimes it is good (maybe) to feel like this...? but i can't wait to get out of this house again, and go home...

Amazing...

I was on youtube, looking at some cello solos and I came across this one, the Handel-Halvorsen Passacaglia for Cello and Violin. And I must say I was blown away, reading some of the comments made me laugh people were saying that they would learn the violin or cello and quite frankly I feel inspired to learn either instrument. I know the sounds of a beginner playing the violin and an experience player are very very different, but practice makes perfect. So here is the video, I suggest you watch the whole thing, it is amazing. A beautiful peice really, and it is doen by the same guy no less. Epic.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NseBdxfHk5k&feature=related

'nuff said, later

my life after new years..

So, it has been a week since my last post.. I need to keep on top of this blog.. haha my life.. hmm... new years eve and day was pretty boring I just sat around talking on msn. Then I went and did the stupidest thing to date, I downloaded and tried to install vista back onto my laptop, which completely buggered it up for a while, because I did the stupid thing of installing the 64 bit version onto my laptop which had/has the 32 bit version on it, so I had hardware problems. But I was able to fix this because I reinstalled my current OS back onto my laptop.. :D and now it works fine..

I saw Monsters vs. Aliens a few days ago.. I thought it was awesome, especially the first contact scene with the giant robot, twas priceless. I won't say anything about it, you'll have to watch it to see what I mean.. :P I also watched Zombieland again, I think it gets better if you watch it a seccond time.. haha. I also watched G-Force, which is a film about Guinea pigs, that are FBI agents.. it has some funny moments, and is overall a good film too..

That has basically been my week, a week of messing up my laptop, and watching films. I have yet to get on with my three essays, all have to be between 1000 and 1500 words each, or chemistry related subjects, like liquid crystals, carbon 60 and a superconductor... but I'll get on them soon.
Methinks thats enough for this post..

'nuff said, later

Hey 2010..

So 2009 is offically gone, it was a year full of joy, and sadness and anger... but it was mostly a Joyful year.. But it was a year full of problems too.. love problems, family problems, life problems, but which year isn't..? This year was a good one, I met new people.. Petra, Malin, Lina, and various new people from uni.. And I reconnected with old friends, Kayta.

I'd like to say thanks to thoes new people for gettint to know me.. :P

Lets hope that 2010 is just as good, if not better..

'nuff said, later