Earlier today I tried some new fanta, for those who may not know fanta is a fruit drink but a fizzy drink. There are lots of flavours out there but the one I tried seems to be new, at least to my country. The flavour was Mango and Passion fruit, the combination seems rather weird but it actually tastes niiiiiiice.
Apart from the new fanta life has been pretty much the same as it usually is, boring.. living in the countryside does that to a person ha-ha. Its all fun and games really.. I think that's enough for this post, I'll probably be posting again sometimes soon. Something with a bit more substance.
Tuesday, 1 May 2012
Tuesday, 14 February 2012
Valentines day..
Today is valentines day, a day that is devoted to couples having a night out because it is a "special" day. A day that has been thought up by corporations to get more money from people so they can increase their profits. Yet for the single person or the recently made single it is a painful memory of the fact they have no special person in their lives..
In that sense a song comes to mind, 'the forgotten one' by Times of Grace, I am drawn to the chorus of that particular song; It goes something like this:
'Lost in a sea of sadness,
Blind in this place of darkness,
If I fall would you be there to raise me up,
Or will I become the forgotten one?'
That songs chorus has been plaguing me for quite some time because of recent events. So as a result I have been rather depressed. I guess the previous posts about it mean everyone knows. haha..
But instead of this post being about a melancholic world, and me having a melancholic life and all that jazz. I would like to quote a playwright and an actor.. Shakespeare and Patrick Stewart..
'My love is a fever, longing still for that which no longer nurseth the disease.
In faith I do not love thee with mine eyes for they in thee see a thousand errors see, but tis mine heart that loves what they despise, who in spite of view are pleased to dote - shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely, and more temperate.
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date.
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimmed;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance, or nature's changing course, untrimmed;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st,
Nor shall death brag thou wand'rest in his shade,
When in eternal lines to Time thou grow'st.
So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.'
In that sense a song comes to mind, 'the forgotten one' by Times of Grace, I am drawn to the chorus of that particular song; It goes something like this:
'Lost in a sea of sadness,
Blind in this place of darkness,
If I fall would you be there to raise me up,
Or will I become the forgotten one?'
That songs chorus has been plaguing me for quite some time because of recent events. So as a result I have been rather depressed. I guess the previous posts about it mean everyone knows. haha..
But instead of this post being about a melancholic world, and me having a melancholic life and all that jazz. I would like to quote a playwright and an actor.. Shakespeare and Patrick Stewart..
'My love is a fever, longing still for that which no longer nurseth the disease.
In faith I do not love thee with mine eyes for they in thee see a thousand errors see, but tis mine heart that loves what they despise, who in spite of view are pleased to dote - shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely, and more temperate.
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date.
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimmed;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance, or nature's changing course, untrimmed;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st,
Nor shall death brag thou wand'rest in his shade,
When in eternal lines to Time thou grow'st.
So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.'
Thursday, 9 February 2012
Cheestrings
I am eating a cheestring right now.. the name of course is trademark of Kerry foods and copyright protected.. now that the legal bit is over I think I can state that this has nothing to do with cheestrings.. I was stuck for a title name.
It is two months into 2012 and already it sucks, now being an atheist I can't really blame God or Allah or any religious deity, monotheistic or not.. So I shall do what I think every atheist does and blame the Universe. As it goes I am still jobless so the possibility of University comes back into play, but it is a lot to pay £9000 for a year. We'll see how that one works out.
At the moment I am feeling rather melancholy and that about sums things up. I believe that I would be a psychologists wet dream, but then again I would reason that anyone in maybe a similar would probably think that, or maybe its because I am arrogant.. its probably the latter. Later today hopefully I am going to give blood, I would reason that I am doing that now because its the only way I can hurt myself legitimately and then help someone too. And now I am wishing that my bone marrow is a match to someone so that doctors can stick a giant needle into my hip, and because I am the way I am, I would say no to anaesthetic.
I'll tell you what blog, I have no idea what to do with my life any more. I had it all sorted out, I was going to go to university and get a degree, I only came out with a foundation degree, and then I was going to get a job in the chemistry sector, because I love working in the lab. I had even hoped that I could eventually have kids. Its all good and well to plan your life like this, but in reality none of it goes the way you want it too, at university I fell in love, with a girl that is the most amazing girl in the entire world, and that was good for like 2 and a half years, I honestly have no idea how the hell she put up with me. And people may say that she was my first love bla bla bla you'll feel strongly when you break up bla bla bla.. Now that's all fan-tabby-dosey but the way I feel is that honestly she was teh one, you know the one you hear about in films and shit, and she slipped through my fingers, and I let it happen, I let the relationship decline to such a point where we were constantly arguing and she didn't feel the same about me any more. As far as cliché goes it could be said that if she was the one then she will come back round or some such thing.
It stands to reason that in physics things happen in pairs, there is no singularity even at a quantum level.. or something like that.. remember I am only a chemist.. but if I go by that then logically there is someone else whom I can feel strongly about.. Sometimes I wish I wasn't a Hydrogen molecule, yes I am making a chemistry analogy so don't leave yet, think about it a Hydrogen molecule can only make a bond with one other molecule so in that way it is monogamous. Now I am not endorsing polygamy or anything in that sense because this strictly refers to non-married couples and everyone else. So if a Hydrogen molecule bonds with something else it gives its only electron to do so thus creating a bond now say if a carbon molecule came alone, it can bond with 4 hydrogen molecules often creating double and triple bonds now obviously these are stronger than single bonds but if a hydrogen molecule is in a double bond with oxygen or carbon then how does the hydrogen molecule get over the fact that it was gotten rid of in a reaction.. and that's relatively how I feel so I wish that I was something along the lines of carbon or oxygen.. but I'm not.. I guess I have to get over her the best that I can.
In all honesty that chemistry analogy seems rather shoddy now that I have read through it.. I think that she was the one.. the one that I could have spent the rest of my life with, but I guess she didn't feel the same way. I guess only time will tell, and only time can heal these massive gouges I have in my heart, obviously the one that feels so the metaphorical not literal.
And as an end to this post.. I leave with this.. Cheestrings are nice.. and its weird how no-one really uses a diary any more, people have gotten braver with their feelings and shizz..
It is two months into 2012 and already it sucks, now being an atheist I can't really blame God or Allah or any religious deity, monotheistic or not.. So I shall do what I think every atheist does and blame the Universe. As it goes I am still jobless so the possibility of University comes back into play, but it is a lot to pay £9000 for a year. We'll see how that one works out.
At the moment I am feeling rather melancholy and that about sums things up. I believe that I would be a psychologists wet dream, but then again I would reason that anyone in maybe a similar would probably think that, or maybe its because I am arrogant.. its probably the latter. Later today hopefully I am going to give blood, I would reason that I am doing that now because its the only way I can hurt myself legitimately and then help someone too. And now I am wishing that my bone marrow is a match to someone so that doctors can stick a giant needle into my hip, and because I am the way I am, I would say no to anaesthetic.
I'll tell you what blog, I have no idea what to do with my life any more. I had it all sorted out, I was going to go to university and get a degree, I only came out with a foundation degree, and then I was going to get a job in the chemistry sector, because I love working in the lab. I had even hoped that I could eventually have kids. Its all good and well to plan your life like this, but in reality none of it goes the way you want it too, at university I fell in love, with a girl that is the most amazing girl in the entire world, and that was good for like 2 and a half years, I honestly have no idea how the hell she put up with me. And people may say that she was my first love bla bla bla you'll feel strongly when you break up bla bla bla.. Now that's all fan-tabby-dosey but the way I feel is that honestly she was teh one, you know the one you hear about in films and shit, and she slipped through my fingers, and I let it happen, I let the relationship decline to such a point where we were constantly arguing and she didn't feel the same about me any more. As far as cliché goes it could be said that if she was the one then she will come back round or some such thing.
It stands to reason that in physics things happen in pairs, there is no singularity even at a quantum level.. or something like that.. remember I am only a chemist.. but if I go by that then logically there is someone else whom I can feel strongly about.. Sometimes I wish I wasn't a Hydrogen molecule, yes I am making a chemistry analogy so don't leave yet, think about it a Hydrogen molecule can only make a bond with one other molecule so in that way it is monogamous. Now I am not endorsing polygamy or anything in that sense because this strictly refers to non-married couples and everyone else. So if a Hydrogen molecule bonds with something else it gives its only electron to do so thus creating a bond now say if a carbon molecule came alone, it can bond with 4 hydrogen molecules often creating double and triple bonds now obviously these are stronger than single bonds but if a hydrogen molecule is in a double bond with oxygen or carbon then how does the hydrogen molecule get over the fact that it was gotten rid of in a reaction.. and that's relatively how I feel so I wish that I was something along the lines of carbon or oxygen.. but I'm not.. I guess I have to get over her the best that I can.
In all honesty that chemistry analogy seems rather shoddy now that I have read through it.. I think that she was the one.. the one that I could have spent the rest of my life with, but I guess she didn't feel the same way. I guess only time will tell, and only time can heal these massive gouges I have in my heart, obviously the one that feels so the metaphorical not literal.
And as an end to this post.. I leave with this.. Cheestrings are nice.. and its weird how no-one really uses a diary any more, people have gotten braver with their feelings and shizz..
Friday, 30 December 2011
Problems
How does one remain friends with someone that broke up with them, or vise versa. Its extremely hard and to be honest i guess at first it is quite problematic because there may or may not be residual feelings for the other party, but I would have to say that to get over things quickly would be to immerse yourself in something, for instance me in a book on mathematics and statistics for scientists and a book on quantum physics for scientists and technicians..
To be honest I haven't really learnt a lot, at the moment, but that might be down to the fact that maths was not really a strong point of mine, even though I have a foundation degree in chemical sciences. I have never been good at maths, but one can master something like maths if one just keeps on plugging away at it, and practices pretty much every day.
That is what will be my resolution for the new year to master my maths skills, I ended up with a D in maths at GCSE level, it may have been down to the fact that I didn't listen or I wasn't taught very well, the excuses are endless. I will do well at maths and be a better scientist as a result.
That is all for this post, so to reiterate.. Immerse yourself in something after a breakup, I'm bad at maths but I want to get better..
To be honest I haven't really learnt a lot, at the moment, but that might be down to the fact that maths was not really a strong point of mine, even though I have a foundation degree in chemical sciences. I have never been good at maths, but one can master something like maths if one just keeps on plugging away at it, and practices pretty much every day.
That is what will be my resolution for the new year to master my maths skills, I ended up with a D in maths at GCSE level, it may have been down to the fact that I didn't listen or I wasn't taught very well, the excuses are endless. I will do well at maths and be a better scientist as a result.
That is all for this post, so to reiterate.. Immerse yourself in something after a breakup, I'm bad at maths but I want to get better..
Sunday, 27 November 2011
Rule #32 - Enjoy the little things
When I feel down and whatnot, I think of zombieland. The films main protagonist goes by a set of rules to survive the zombie apocalypse. Many of these rules can be put into practise in the real world, like #32, enjoy the little things.
For those of you who know me, so I assume none of you, I am short sighted. That means that I can't see things that are far away from me, it's just a blur. Its from my mothers side of the family, which means that I have to wear glasses. At some point in my life I want to have laser eye surgery. I wear contact lenses too and today I had them in and I looked up at the sky whilst it was dark and the stars were visible to the naked eye, and what I saw amazed me because usually I can see blurry stars. But today I saw them in clear vision and it impresses me its that kind of thing that makes me enjoy being alive and whatnot.
The stars are an amazing entity, as is space.. seeing pictures taken by the hubble space telescope and whatnot makes you appreciate it all especially when the pictures are taken in infra red to get something other than complete darkness.
I believe that every one should enjoy the stars because that is one of their purposes, I like to go to a quiet place and just look at the stars and occasionally think about things, but that might be for another post.
Saturday, 19 November 2011
what would you do?
Life, and its infinate mysteries.. Scientists and spiratulists alike trying to figure a specific meaning to lifes mysteries.. I was thinking today in all of my infinate wisodom or rather finite wisdom, that there can't be one reason to life there has to be more than one reason.. But I am no where near qualified to answer those types of questions.
So instead I ask a different question, a rather nerdy one at that. Hypothetically, and I mean hypothetically because there is no proof that it could ever happen, if there was a Zombie apocolypse what would your contingency plan be?
I know someone who would just hide and if discovered wouldn't put up a fight, and I know others that have lots of things planned out. Now as a geek or nerd or whatever you want to call me, I do spend quite a bit of my day thinking about said apocolypse and to be honest I can't really come up with a whole deal because the area where I live is country side, and that may not be so bad in respects of finding secluded places to hide but it does give rise to a whole different set of problems.
For instance, if I was to stay in the country side I would have to stock up lots on food and petrol/diesel and possibly water. And then if I ran out it would take a while to get to the nearest place that had a supply of those things. Now my country side isn't as bad as that I live in a small town quite far from a big town.. so I have supplies here for the time being.. But there are places that are rather remotely desolate.
And then you come to weapons, now I could use a gun against a zombie because lets face it a zombie is just a shadow of the former person it was, but I would only use a gun as a last resort because they do attract alot of attention i.e the loud bang. And I would carry around a knife of some sort because one could always use a knife..
I am not sure what else to consider appart from lodgings, but lets face it everyone has different ideas of where to stay out a zombie apocolypse, some would constantly travel, others would rather stay in a pub. I think I am a fan of finding a place near to a supply area but not too near.. and most definatly not somewhere that is in the middle of nowhere..
So instead I ask a different question, a rather nerdy one at that. Hypothetically, and I mean hypothetically because there is no proof that it could ever happen, if there was a Zombie apocolypse what would your contingency plan be?
I know someone who would just hide and if discovered wouldn't put up a fight, and I know others that have lots of things planned out. Now as a geek or nerd or whatever you want to call me, I do spend quite a bit of my day thinking about said apocolypse and to be honest I can't really come up with a whole deal because the area where I live is country side, and that may not be so bad in respects of finding secluded places to hide but it does give rise to a whole different set of problems.
For instance, if I was to stay in the country side I would have to stock up lots on food and petrol/diesel and possibly water. And then if I ran out it would take a while to get to the nearest place that had a supply of those things. Now my country side isn't as bad as that I live in a small town quite far from a big town.. so I have supplies here for the time being.. But there are places that are rather remotely desolate.
And then you come to weapons, now I could use a gun against a zombie because lets face it a zombie is just a shadow of the former person it was, but I would only use a gun as a last resort because they do attract alot of attention i.e the loud bang. And I would carry around a knife of some sort because one could always use a knife..
I am not sure what else to consider appart from lodgings, but lets face it everyone has different ideas of where to stay out a zombie apocolypse, some would constantly travel, others would rather stay in a pub. I think I am a fan of finding a place near to a supply area but not too near.. and most definatly not somewhere that is in the middle of nowhere..
Tuesday, 15 November 2011
Fixed
I thought that my laptop was broken, I was told that my heatsink had melted through my motherboard. This I found was wrong, all I needed was a new stick of RAM (random access memory) to make it work again, so I find myself with a laptop now.. :) This makes me well happy, because I don't have to use the desktop anymore!
There was a constant competition to try and get the desktop always, because everyone on in the family wanted to get on at the same time. But not anymore I have my laptop back now. Also today is the international friendly between Sweden and England. Last week England beat the top team in the world, the european and world champions, Spain. I wonder what the score will be tonight. England haven't beaten Sweden since 1968, during which 12 games have been played. I half hope that England win, but I also half hope that Sweden win too.
Anyway to the match.. later people :P
There was a constant competition to try and get the desktop always, because everyone on in the family wanted to get on at the same time. But not anymore I have my laptop back now. Also today is the international friendly between Sweden and England. Last week England beat the top team in the world, the european and world champions, Spain. I wonder what the score will be tonight. England haven't beaten Sweden since 1968, during which 12 games have been played. I half hope that England win, but I also half hope that Sweden win too.
Anyway to the match.. later people :P
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